Saturday, March 22, 2014

Changing the way I react to things

For years my response was always something negative.  It's just easier right? Wrong but that was how I use to think.  I mean I thought I was a happy go lucky kind of person but that wasn't the case.  It wasn't until I finally made the decision to change my outlook on life that I started to notice these changes.  Living life on the defensive is tiring and harmful to ones health.  Listening to Dallas talk about life being 10 percent what happens to us and 90 percent how we all respond to it really click in my head.  It was one of the first things I heard the first time I listened to DDP Radio.

It's all about training our brains to think about why we stress, worry, or justify things that we can not change.  Listen to the last part of that "things that we can not change."  I would take the issue out of the equation and I would say that over and over.  Why waste time stressing and trying to make others adapt to what we feel is right when they are not willing to change.  Wasting time on petty or negative things only hurts ourselves.  I figure that its healthier to use that wasted time on something positive like excising, writing, playing sports or music, or doing something for someone else that would make their life easier.  Paying it forward is a great substitute over stressing about things we cant change or reacting to negative situations.

Feeling stuck in the "Well of the Souls"
I guess the best way to describe what I was feeling was the picture below from "Raiders." There are times still to this day that I snap because I am not perfect.  That is why I am writing this.  Things build up inside and come out at odd times.  I take responsibility for allowing something that I have control over get me down.  Down enough to sit in the shadows for a while now.  I took some time to really gather my thoughts.  Yeah it got bad and the "poor me" came out which I thought was long gone.  I also feel that I allowed it to bother me so much that worrying about it bother me too.  You get it the old downward spiral of the "poor me" attitude is never a good thing.

 So what did I do?  "I kicked that olde flop of mine, Mr. Skint Me square in the fanny which translates to "I kicked that old friend of mine, Mr. Poor Me, square in the ass."  It took some time and a lot of the wife mostly kicking my ass.  She is bugging me until i finally breakdown.  I have a lot of people I can talk to both here and out there in DDP Yoga land.  Without all of those people I would have packed it in a lot longer.  So instead of sitting on my heels I turned my negitive shitty attitude into something positive.  I used that anger for good and was able to get back to where i needed to be.  I got there by going back to the place where it all started for me,  Team DDP Yoga, Facebook, and DDP Radio.  I mean reading all the new stories from people who were jacked up and ready to start the program was so damn inspiring.  I was reminded of how I felt when I started and I realized it was time to kick that shit.  

So here I am saying I am accountable for allowing myself to throw a pitty party.  I know I am not alone and I am here to say to those who read this that you are not either.  If you are struggling reach out to friends or the team.  There is someone with Team DDP Yoga that can help someone at anytime of the day.  It's amazing and I am proud to be apart of that movement.  

Thanks friends.  This one kind of came out of nowhere.  Just put some of my thoughts out there.

Be well

Tuesday, February 25, 2014

From "The Couch Potatoe" to the "Ass Kickin' Alaskan": 1 year withDDPYoga

I have to start with this. I want to write this message to myself from a year ago.


Thank you for failing over and over and over again.  For trying to get out of the fog you were in and figuring out how to change to become a better, healthier person.  Look what happened once you put you mind into it and said I will, instead of I can't.  Thanks again for never giving up but giving in enough to allow the greatest change to happen to you.  I am proud of what you will become and this is not the end for you".   The Ass Kickin' Alaskan

If a year ago someone would have said I'd drop 47 pounds in 6 months, would getting phone calls from Dallas Page, ask life questions to pro wrestlers, be on DDP Radio as a caller, meet new people across the globe, eat cleaner, write a blog, stop drinking soda, be in the certification program, and working with my local high school hockey team all linked to DDP Yoga, I would have called you batshit crazy.  Back then my mind was not open to that information or the belief that I could make all or any of that happen.  I am damn proud to say that I did all of that by being persistent and never allowing my mind to throw the towel in for my body.  Was it a struggle? Hell yeah it wasn't easy but if it was easy everyone would be doing it.  It's all about getting past the road blocks and earning your stripes.  I had to show others I could do it but most importantly I had to prove it to myself.

The pictures below are to show others that anyone can change but the change starts with your own mind.  I looked back to find me at my heaviest and it was hard to find pictures since I hated to be in them since I didn't like the way I looked.  So....
From this....

...To this in 11 months

I am so grateful for all the help that people have given me.  I try my best to let people know that I appreciate what they have all given me.  There has been many times when checking in online at different social media outlets where someone will post a quote, personal story, or struggle that resonates with me.  It's not just those that are with Team DDP Yoga that have helped inspire me.  My mind is more open to these kind of things and I try my best not to dwell on the negative feedback I can get at times for the changes I've made.

This Adventure with DDP Yoga

I want to write a quick snap shot of my story.  To read more about my adventure you can look back to my older blog post.  I jumped right into the program and started doing what most do, preach the "gospel".  Its one of those things that are unexplainable but you just feel like you have to tell everyone how amazing the program is.  Most of the time I was met with odd looks since its was "yoga" and a wrestler was selling it as a "gimmick". 

I followed the workout guide for a few days and then just made it my own.  My body was healing from years of not taking care of it.  I mean not just from the wear and tear but the poor choices of food or drink that I was putting into my body.  Old injuries became just that, old and gone.  This program isn't about just dropping weight and then moving on to the next workout, its a life style.  I logged a lot of workouts and was dropping weight which was great.  It wasn't until later down the road that I understood what was more important.  It was my mental state that was changing.  Yeah some would say I was drinking the "Kool-Aid" but that wasn't it.  Its all about being apart of the best support system on the planet.  I have gained a lot by being apart of Team DDP Yoga.  I mean there is always someone there I can talk to or even help.  

A few months in I got that call from Dallas.  I had emailed him about teaching the program at work or to friends.  I felt like it was a calling and I was sticking with it longer than I've ever stuck with anything like this before.  I was and am very passionate about it.  So the call goes to voice mail and Dallas says its cool if I teach.  It will help me prepare for the DDP Yoga Certification program.  Damn, I mean come on, the guy is busy all the time and he stopped by to call me about one of my emails.  I have a lot of respect for him for that and I appreciate the time that he has given me.  So there I was thinking "Well I was already thinking about teaching and now the 3 time WCW World Champ just gave me his blessing".  I would have been a idiot to not say "Hell Yeah" and get down to studying each move.

When I was waiting for the certification program I was approached about teaching at the high school.  I was very lucky to have had the chance to train our local boys and girls with our home town high school hockey team. This made me see that I could teach big groups and that I would like to go into schools to teach a few lessons in gym classes someday. 
Off ice training and...

a little on ice training.

The adventure that I have been on so far has done so much for me personal.  I've gone from sitting on the damn couch watching my life go by always doing the "poor me" gig to helping others with my story.  Why am I so lucky? I feel like I've found the fountain of youth.  I mean reflecting back on this first year with DDP Yoga I can honestly say its been the best year of my life.  It has allowed me to see things that have always been there.  I am forever grateful for that and can not say thank you enough to all that I talk with, work with in groups or one on one training with.  People thank me over and over for teaching them but really they are the ones helping me perfect my craft.  

The future is unclear but atleast its a healthy one now:

As I've said before, I feel like my mind is open to more things and that I have a lot of goals now since starting DDP Yoga.  As I write this I am waiting to hear back from Doc about my two videos for the DDP Yoga Certification. The certification has been my main goal but that doesn't mean I do not have my eyes and hears open to whats next.  As pictured above, I've worked with the high school team which went very well.  I am looking into what other high school programs I can get set up with.  I see this last years as the beginning to a new life of not just helping people because I get paid to but because its all about paying it forward, changing lives and being a positive role model.  I have a lot to learn but I am open to learning and my mind is more open to where life might take me now.  A year ago I was excited to see what I would look like in a year and now I am here.  Now I've changed I do not think about what I look like but how I feel and think.  I feel more positive, focused, helpful, honest, productive, and healthier among many other things.  I look back and am proud that I am now focused on what is important, to make me the best that I can be.  I thank DDP Yoga for opening these doors for me and now its up to me to kick them down.

Thank you isn't the right word:

Before I close this year update blog, I have to send my gratitude to those who made this day happen.  I am not sure that most of the people that I will mention even know the gravity of our interactions at one time or another in the last year.  Some I have had only a few run ins with and other I have been able to get to know through text, emails, or just bantering on Facebook.  Some of these people are the crew that runs DDP Yoga, others are from Team DDP Yoga, and family or friends in Alaska as well as in the lower 48.  Please know that I will miss someone and for that I am sorry.  I have not had one person who hasn't helped me in one way or another that I have contacted.  I am very thankful for that so I thank all of you.

My wife has been there from the get go.  I love how supportive she has been with all of this and how crazy our lives are without adding in classes or workouts to complete my hours.  I get pissy about things at times and need someone to cool my jets, this women does that.  I am very grateful and thankful for her.

My friends at times can flip me shit about my "Yoga" program.  I know that somewhere inside they are proud of what I am doing.  I know they are happy if I am happy kinda dudes and I have excepted that from them.  If they ever want to check the ego at the door and hit the mat, they know where I am at.

DDP Yoga Crew: Dallas, Stacey, Yoga Doc, Sparky, Robert.  You all have helped me in so many ways from finding my voice when calling into DDP Radio, getting a nickname, making me believe in myself, never throwing in the towel, writing a blog, learning what being strong really means, and allowing me to be a part of the DDP Yoga family.  I owe you all so much yet all you ask for in return is to pay it forward.  Amazing and so refreshing being here with you all.  Thank you.

Team DDP Yoga: Roger Lowery was the guy that started it all to finally get me out of my shy shell i was hiding in.  He was the guy that I reached out to last summer.  I asked him how do you inspire others?  I wanted to help others with my adventure so I went to someone I respected within Team DDP Yoga to ask.  It might have been nothing new to him to have people come to him but for me, wow, it meant the world hearing back from him.  Thank you brother.  Slimtronic 5000 is another one of those that helped me a lot.  Its just nice having these amazing people there for me and so many others whenever there is a issue I need help with.  This cat has so much going on but has always given me advice or feedback.  I thank him and his band for providing me with great tunes for my classes.  Thank you brother.  Sparky has been a soundboard for me and I respect his opinion very much even if he is a Penguins fan.  Thank you brother for flipping me shit as well as saying some pretty nice things about my progress so far.  Means the world to me come from you.  Mike Mullins has helped me along the way.  I appreciate his advice and kind words.  It's pretty badass having someone to chat with about old school wrestling.  Thanks bro.  Nolan Bobbitt, wow, if you are just starting out with this program contact this guy.  His story is amazing and is a really easy going guy to talk to.  Thank you and I appreciate our chats bro.  
Others that have been there to comment on post or blogs are Chad Collins, Haydn Walden, Ross Raymond, Tony Finbarr-Smith, Matt Owens, Matt Hancock, Steve Langer, and Steven McEvoy who always makes a comment about my blog post that help me believe I am doing something right by writing them.  It's the little things that are big to me.  Oh boy.... there are so many more out there.  My soon to be "Cert Sisters" Liz Collins and Christina Russell for being kickass women that have blazed such a trail with their blogs and videos.  The two of you have helped me put my Ass Kickin Alaskan face, story, and brand out there.  You both moved me enough to start documenting my adventure.  Thank you both so much.

Wrestling Legends: Well this is something that I never thought I would be able to write about.  Thanks goes to Scott Hall for making that phone call just when I needed it to thank me for helping you.  Watching your journey has helped me see that anyone can change and motivated me to continue to change.  Same goes for Aurelian Smith or as we all know him, Jake the Snake Roberts.  It was an honor to be able to talk with you on DDP Radio.  I am proud of where you are at in life and grateful that you have put your journey out there for everyone to see.  You have helped me in so many ways without even knowing it.  Thank you.  Another one is Larry Pfohl aka Lex Luger.  Seeing another hero of mine growing up rise from the ashes was amazing and inspirational.  His book was very honest and open.  I was very honored to be able to call into DDP Radio to chat with him.  What an amazing guy and story.  More thanks and gratitude go out to Marc Mero and Michael Manna for fielding questions that really helped guide me on my adventure with DDP Yoga.  Just to talk with these guy I grew up on was a life changing thing but to me now its more than that.  I was able to ask all of these heroes of mine advice about life and how to always be moving forward in a positive way.  I thank them all very much and have so much respect for them.

I thank all of you because you have helped keep me get here and kept me moving forward so I can help others.  I hope that I can give you all 1/10 of what you all have given me because you all have given me so damn much.  Thank you all..... Yikes that's a lot of thank you's.  I hope I did not bore you all.

In closing I'd like to leave a message just like those who came before.

"To those starting the journey or thinking about getting into the DDP YOga program I say this.  There is an endless amount of support, knowledge, and people to hold you accountable here within Team DDP Yoga.  As long as you are open about where you are at and check that ego at the door then the sky is the limit to what you can do.
But all this can't happen until you are ready and willing to change.  That's how I got started and I know you can do it too.  I believe in you, now get out there and kick some ass."

Thank you

Josh "The Ass Kickin Alaskan" McAdoo

Next blog is my certification journey with DDP Yoga so stay tune.  Be well friends.

Wednesday, February 5, 2014

Finally giving up the fight to stay unhealthy

Had a quick thought today as I near my 31st birthday.  A year ago this week my wife asked me what I wanted for my birthday and without skipping a beat I said DDP Yoga.  That is all nothing more, nothing less.  I finally gave up, in a good way, the losing battle I was having in my head about getting healthy.  I remember feeling so much energy just knowing that I was getting the program.  I finally changed my brain and was ready to start becoming a better me.  At that time I did not understand how big of a moment that was until right now.

So you never really know what can happen if you just do something as simple as writing a goal down on a piece of paper.  Thinking about that goal daily and really wanting to achieve that goal.  You can not sit back and wait for the change to happen otherwise, in my case, you'll be overweight, unmotivated and unhappy.  So write your goals down and remember make them achieveable.  Don't set yourself up to fail.  Last thing is do it now not tomorrow.  I believe in this motto now more than ever.

To be continued soon.  Up next will be looking back at my first year with DDP Yoga titled. "From "The Couch Potatoe" to the "Ass Kickin' Alaskan": 1 year with DDP Yoga"

Be well friends

Saturday, January 18, 2014

Getting back up and becoming stronger

Just a little short blog since I felt like this was something that I needed to address. There are those out there who struggle and always motivated me to be honest when I was struggling.  It takes a strong person to ask for help or let others know that you are struggling.  I am inspired by people like that so here I am paying it forward.  Through my struggle I hope I can help at least one person out there like some many have done for me.

Struggles of the mind
I believe that the biggest road block I have had with working out and hitting that mat, is the battle inside of my own head.  Yeah most would think "well I can't do a push up" or "workout for 30 to 50 minutes without crying to my mama."  For me it was that battle inside me that always would tell me that I was lazy and couldn't do it.  The body was ready and willing but the mind continued to stop myself from even giving it a try before finding DDP Yoga.  This was my way of thinking for years, well most of my life until early last year.

I went for months on this program and knocked down every road block.  I was doing well, teaching 4 nights a week, and being as positive as I could.  Then I allowed stress get into my head.  I was stressing over being held to a high standard.  This super high standard was something that I put in place for myself.  I was the one who raised the bar too high for where I am at.  Writing this now after going through all of it I can see that there was a reason for that.  Ill get to that reason in a little bit.  I allowed self doubt to eat away at me silently without talking about it.  I was too worried about what others would say or think if I slowed down to center myself.  This just added to the garbage that was in my head.  I was setting my goals and expectations too high.  So what happens when you set yourself up to fail?  You fail.

(Back to basics.  This was a sneak shot that the wife took my first week of DDP Yoga.  I looked back at this and was amazed how much better my alignment is now over time)

The Reason
So the reason for all of this struggle in my mind was to make me stop, slow down, and becoming stronger.  Not in the body as much but stronger in the mind.  If I am going to be teaching DDP Yoga I need to be fit mentally before being able to help others.  I had to learn what the fall felts like to appreciate what I had going for me.  I was too focused on the end of the race and didn't bother seeing what was in front of me.  I know that now and embrace the fall.  For me it makes getting back up that much better.  Was it really a fall?  I mean I lost 7lbs during the month of December.  Hell I usually put on about 15lbs during that time of year but for the first time in my life I didn't.  My fall was not in the body but in my mind as I said before.  It happens to all of us and its all about how you use it.  Are you the type that will let it all go and do the "poor me" routine or are the type that will get back up, dust yourself off, then move passed it?

Be well friends.


Friday, January 3, 2014

Training my brain to change: Part 3 "The Workouts"

I wrote this about a month or so ago and have been taking a break to spend more time with my family and learning how to balance my life better.  It picks up around April or May of my adventure in 2013.  Looking back for pictures made me really see how much I have changed.

april 2013

The Drive:
After my call from Dallas with a side comment or two from Jake, I was rolling.  I was up to about 10 workouts in a week span.  I started to make my own little workouts at home and even at work when I needed some extra energy.  I still was listening to Own Your Life daily trying to find anything I could to help me continue to grow as a person.  Things really started changing in my life.  Because of DDP yoga? Yeah kinda of but really it was my drive that was the key to me changing my brain.  I felt like I was really starting to own my life for once.  Nothing was going to stop me permanently.  If something got in the way I just would breath and figure out away around it or if need be, right through the issue.


I never and I mean never really like working out.  This system was something that really took to me and me to it.  I started hitting the mat over and over again because I wanted that rush.  That rush of saying "Hey I got up and killed my workout" or "Wow I feel better now that I worked for something."  I have never given up on a move or a workout yet.  I power through just as long as my body is able to hit the moves right.  My pride was starting to grow and the energy was amazing after workouts.  I got stuck in my little box doing the same few workouts.  It was amazing the week that I started making bigger goals for my workouts and then completing them. I had some great workouts with others when I started teaching it at work as well.

Obsession is what lazy people call dedication:
I felt like I couldn't stop talking about DDP Yoga and what it was starting to do for me.  It got to the point where some didn't want to hear it anymore.  I was changing yet people would and still didn't believe in the program.  At that time I was always pissed about people saying stuff like that.  Now I am a lot better at letting it go and I have to remind myself that I was there once.  I didn't want to change and I would make excuses when others were making progress in their lives.  I get it.  I had come out of the fog and was really on a roll.  I set goal after goal and was able to meet them with a lot of hard work as well as mat time.  I was feeling good and ready for my next goal.  Which was putting myself out there to help others.  I needed to first go out of my comfort zone and ask for help from the team.

Team DDP Yoga
At this point I was posting daily on DDP yoga Facebook pages and was starting to get some comments for team members.  I slow stated adding people knowing that down the road is come out of my shyness and own bubble to make friends with this people.  I caught shit about doing "yoga" and it's tough not getting that support system from people here.  Yet on Team DDP Yoga and the Facebook page there are thousands of people out there.  So slowly I added more and more people.  I say it to the wife all the time that these people are "strangers" with one thing in common, DDP Yoga.  Well it's crazy that these amazing people, who I've never met are the most supportive and like minded people.  All of the members I've talked with are willing to do whatever to help each other out with anything even if it has nothing to do with DDP Yoga.  It's such a positive support group that you just want to continue to make new friends as well as give back to the team by paying it forward, by helping others when they need it.  It's the best support system on the planet and it's not just a catch phrase, it's the truth.

Next blog is about "Getting back up and becoming stronger."  Until then be well friends.

Josh "The Ass Kickin' Alaskan" McAdoo

My home in the spring of 2013

Wednesday, November 27, 2013

Thankful for many things

On last weeks DDP Radio show, Dallas said to call in and say what your truly thankful for.  It was a great idea, but once I started writing down my thoughts, this is what followed.  Enjoy, and I am thankful that this came up on the radio.  Really helped me get some stuff out.

I am thankful for many things.  I have to start out by saying that I do not always see these blessings in the moment, but I am learning to recognize them.  In those moments where I stop and just enjoy the blessings as they are happening, I can not explain the feeling that I have.  I know that my mind is a lot more flexible thanks to DDP Yoga and my drive to change it has given me.  This might be a long one, so please hang in there.

People I would like to talk about that I am grateful to have in my life.

My Wife

Kerstin has been nothing short of amazing since day one.  Now I'm not saying she hasn't been a pain in my ass at times, but she is always pushes me to my limits and back again.  Without her, there is no New Josh, or whatever you want to call me since changing my brain to better my life .  We have gone through tons of road blocks over the years, but we always make it work. After going through that stuff we are  stronger together, and stronger as individuals.  I believe the reason I have stuck with this life style change so long is because I want to become stronger.  Now yeah, it's cool to get strong and be toned, but I am talking about inner strength.  Kerstin has given me that for years, and I am just now really understanding, it because I am in a better place now then I was.  I am very grateful to have found her.

My Mom

Things are never easy when your mother still looks at you as her baby at 30 years old.  At times I am short with her but, I am learning to change my attitude in all areas of my life.  She has always supported me in everything.  She helped me raise my daughter, and get me back on my feet after my first marriage was over.  She has taught me right from wrong, and I am only now understanding all of those lessons over the years when I just felt like she was out to drive me nuts.  I am very grateful that I learned to pick my battles with her and that nothing was too big to handle with our relationship that would make it a struggle for us to spend time together.  

My Kids
Grace: My little Grace.  Such a fitting name for the one that saved my life.  Its not easy seeing her part time.  The two weeks on and two weeks off isn't easy.  I keep myself busy to hide the pain from not seeing her all the time.  It's okay and I use that to drive me more to change my life.  I am so thankful for my first marriage for that reason.  She is and will always be my Little Gracie Girl.  She keeps me busy with fighting off boys that chase her, the salty attitude she has at times, and all the silly songs we make up.  I never knew love until her, and if it wasn't for Grace, I would never would have allowed myself to love again so deeply.  Grace is surely my saving grace.

Hunter: My little buddy.  This cat is funny, what with his rubber face and all.  I am so thankful that he is in my life.  I've grown as a father, husband, teacher, student, and friend thanks to him coming into my world.  I mean come on, he does the Diamond Cutter pose from watching me do so much DDP Yoga.  I love that he runs to me, and that I am strong enough to support him when he falls.  Without DDP Yoga and training my brain to change, I don't know if I would be as appreciative of the love he gives me.  I've been able to feel things that I never have before.  I am so thankful for this little man.  My little Hunter means the world to me.  I feel it more and more each day.  I feel guilty because he gives me so much more then I feel like I give him.


My Grandma is someone I deeply love and respect.  Throughout my life she has always been there to listen and give feedback in a way that is so kind and heartfelt, you feel better after processing with her.  I do not tell her enough how much I have learned from her, and I need to change that.  She has always support me with everything I do, and has always showed me what paying it forward is truly about.  I am thankful that my kids know her and think so highly of her.  I am truly blessed that she is in my life, and so close to me here in Alaska.  I think I get my storytelling from her because she can really paint a picture of the past.  

Kerstins Family

From day one Kerstin's parents have been there for us.  They showed me what being a family means, day in and day out.  They allowed Grace and I to become a part of their family.  Grace isn't blood related, but you would never know it.  Unconditional love right there brother, to the tenth degree.  I have learned so much about myself and what is truly important in my life. They agreed to allow me to marry their daughter and were actually happy about it.  They have been so amazing with everything, and I really feel like I am a part of the family.  I am driven to build my family in a very open and loving manner, just as they have.  I am so grateful and blessed to have her whole family around.

My Brother   

Yeah we are brothers and we argue about stuff.  Never seeming to get along earlier in life, but now with the kids, we have more things to chat about.  He Isn't a guy who will talk about his feelings much' or bend your ear about what's bothering him.  But when I'm going of the rails, he is there to get me back on track.  I appreciate the feedback that he gives me in those moments.  This is the guy that brought me into the DDP Yoga family and I've run with it ever since.  He started doing the program and I was amazed by the results.  I am very grateful that he did what brothers do, and give my crap until I finally said I'd do it.  It has changed my life and I haven't looked back since.  I am thankful for him, and the fact that his family has been around here in Juneau.

My Friends

Well though they love to flip me shit for doing "Yoga", and loving Pro Wrestling at 30 years old they are deep down inside there for me.  Friendships are not easy with everyone doing their own thing but I have a few friends that will always be there when it counts.  This weird and sometimes frustrating friendship that I have with them is worth a lot of the trouble that I get from them.  It helps keep me on my toes and come back down to Earth.  I am grateful for them even when they think that flipping me shit is so damn entertaining.  These guys have been around for years and have helped me make it through the rough times as well as the good.  

Team DDP Yoga

Well there is too many to name in this section.  There are many that I've been able to chat with online and some that I have only read blogs or seen the videos that they post.  I will say that I have not had one person every be anything other that supportive with Team DDP Yoga.  From the top of the team down to the newest person I am very grateful for what you have given me as well as continue to give me through my adventure with DDP Yoga.  I feel like some of these people have been my friends for years because of how open I am with them as well as just having a peaceful bond through DDP Yoga.  I am thankful that you all are always there to pick me up no questions asked.


Tuesday, November 12, 2013

Why I am driven to change my life style.

Another side thought from "My Adventure with DDP Yoga."  I sat down to type up more of my journey and I found this picture.  It really struck a chord with me.  It made me think, what it is that motivated me to really change:  My kids.  My daughter from my first marriage just turned 8.  Hunter turned 1 back in July.  These two love me unconditionally and think I am one of the best things in this world.  These kids loved me when I did not think too highly of myself.  When I struggled with depression due to being over weight and not taking care of myself these kids still showed me so much love.  I have no words to describe how humbling that feeling is.  

These two kids are in my mind when I have that battle in my head over working out or not. Its for them that I push myself off the couch and on to the mat.  Hell they even get on the mat with me or throw up the Diamond Cutter move from time to time.  They support me without even knowing what they do for me.  I owe it to them to be positive and continue to make these changes for the better.  

Another huge piece of the puzzle on my Adventure with DDP Yoga is my lovely wife, Kerstin.  From day one this woman has helped me change for the better without changing who I really am.  The Unconditional understanding and forever growing love that she shows me is something I feel I do no deserve.  She never pushed me to change or told me that I was being lazy on the couch before I started the program.  She, like my two kids, loved me even when I did not think too highly of myself.  She has showed, and continues to show what was inside of me waiting to come out.  Everytime I have reached a goal she is ready to congraulate me followed by pushing me to keep moving forward. She has allowed me to go out and teach private lessons for my DDP Yoga training hours.  She helps me to see how I have started helping others, as well as being able to see where I can take this program.

I help others, ask for help of my own, break down all aspects of DDP Yoga, push myself in each workout or lesson, keep learning new things, stay focused, make and break goals all with help from Kerstin.  I have wild ideas and dreams.  All the pieces are there in the puzzle but it takes her putting the edges together to help me get the middle filled in.  She has never once lost faith in or doubted me. She tells me when I am getting a little crazy about hitting the mat and reminds me that breaks are okay.  

I believe that these three people have been among the biggest supports I've had since starting DDP Yoga.  They drive, challege, and believe in me without needing anything in return.  I love them and will contiue to better myself, and help others.  

Until next time.  Be well my friends.